We Can't Seem To Let It Go!!

So I finally sent in the paperwork to Lutheran Services!! Not turning back now I guess:) We still have to get fingerprints, medical clearance, and driving record....but other than that it's all over but the crying! However, I have been so emotional lately when it comes to the fact that I cannot have another child with my husband. I just can't seem to let it go. Men are different from women as they have no biological clock. Mine doesn't tick....it's more like an alarm clock every morning that says, "What the hell are you doing? You can't give up now!!" So, do I listen to the clock and dig myself a deeper hole in this TTC world? Do I continue to hit the snooze button and ignore it? HELL NO!!! Jake and I discussed it and we want to get back to the place where there are no frozen dewars to deal with! Back to the way that the good lord intended. We are now going to have a re-do of Jake's Vasectomy Reversal!!!!! Whose excited? I am!! Shockingly he is too!! We are still going to foster with the hope of adopting though as those babies need forever homes!!

So I contacted a Dr. Wilson out of Oklahoma as he was very resonable in price and has a gaurantee!! However, he replied and it looks like we won't be going with him as our miracle worker:( He said that we will need a bypass surgeon and he does not perform these types of surgeries. He said that if he did the procedure the standard way, he would give us a 35% chance of conceiving. I DO NOT LIKE THOSE ODDS!! That's about the same odds that we would have with IVF! So, I then found another Dr. out of Texas that will perform the procedure at no extra charge!! He is also reasonable in price!! I will be contacting them later today if I can find the time. We will not be doing anything until Spring though, as I will be using my tax return to foot the bill. Plus Jake always slows down with work in the spring, so what better time to take a relaxing vacation to Texas for surgery??LOL!! I pray that this works for us as I am NOT A QUITTER!!!!