And My Decision Is............

So after almost a full day of research and reading other stories of women who are TTC in the same situation I am in, I have come to the conclusion that adoption is my best route! I haven't even talked to the DR. yet, but I can't see him giving me a guarantee that IVF will work the first time. I cannot put myself through anymore turmoil. So, I have contacted a local agency to get the ball rolling. They are sending me an information packet and, once I have looked that over, I will decide on the best agency for me. The homestudy will be started ASAP as I have NO patience left whatsoever!!! I have also contacted Lutheran Family Services and have an orientation set for November 5th at 5:30PM so I can start the ball rolling with my Foster Care License. I figure that while I wait to adopt, I will foster. And, if the situation arises where I may adopt from within the foster care system then even better!!! However, I feel extremely selfish with doing that as I want an infant!! Sure, infants sometimes come into foster care, but not very often. But I will take ANY child into my home that needs love and attention....I just can't see myself adopting them. The women in charge of licensing told me that they are not looking for foster homes to adopt as they are wishing that the families will regain parental control and take them back. That does make me feel better in a sense. Plus I will be making a difference in a childs life. Does it get any better than that?? Anyway, if all goes well I will have my Home Study done in the next month or so and I can be placed on the list. The agency I am thinking of going to has a very quick wait time!!! They are in desperate need for homes for bi-racial babies and I have no problem whatsoever with that!!!!! Jake on the other hand does!! It's going to take a miracle to open his eyes!!!!