OMG! I have a Blog!!!

Holy Cow! I am crafty!! So, here I am on the first day of my blog entries. I started this blog as I am at a crossroads. Jake and I have been doing these DAMN IUI treatments for the past year and nothing has come of it! It's like throwing $5000.00 out the window. For the past 2 cycles I was placed on Follistim for my IUI's to help increase the number of follicles. Well, injects just don't do a thing for me at this point in my life I guess. I had high FSH in August (15.5) and started taking DHEA to help that number go down. Well, it did!!! It was 9 with my last cycle in October after taking the DHEA for about 2 months. However, it did nothing for my response to the injects!! So I am in a pickle. Jake is getting angry (There's a big shock!) and he's at the point of giving me 1 final shot to get the elusive crib midget. So.....should that final shot be adoption as you are guaranteed a child as your end result?! Or should I bite the bullet and try a round of IVF. Which I don't think is going to do anything for us as I DO NOT respond to the drugs!! Let's look at the pros and cons shall we:

ADOPTION-

Guaranteed success!
EXPENSIVE- $10,000-$30,000
Long Wait- Between 12-18 months

IVF-

No guaranteed success!
Time consuming
LOT'S of Hormones (As if I don't have enough raging through my body!)
SAME DAMN let down if not successful! After 12 months of this crap I don't think my heart can take any more :(

So, it is going to a very stressful next week or so until I can clear my head and make a decision on what's best for us. I have a phone consult set up with Dr. Young tomorrow morning at 10:40am. I am hoping that he will be HONEST with me and not feed me a line of bull to make me think that IVF will be my saving grace. As of right now, I don't think anything will be my saving grace!!!